why is it that i live day by day through my school assignments? i find myself regularly saying, once this ___ is done then I will feel so much better.
for example, tomorrow i am giving a referat (a presentation) in my german class and today i am telling myself, once my referat is over with tomorrow i will feel so relieved. i will be able to focus on my other school assignments, like my 450 final paper, and my 473 final project. but why is it that i can't bring myself to work on those big projects today? they'll probably affect my grade more than this silly german presentation will be able to improve (or hurt) my grade.
and then i find myself saying, and then after that, and after that, and after that, then final exams, and then i'll be out of school for 4 months. then, well then, that'll be so great. i'll feel so peaceful. but then, actually, i'll be planning the last details of my wedding. but the plan (and goal) is that it won't be quite as stressful.
working 40 hours a week and planning a wedding doesn't seem like it'll be quite as bad as working 15 hours a week and taking 15 credits and planning a wedding, right?
maybe i should try living for today instead of living for when my school projects will be done. and maybe i shouldn't procrastinate my school assignments to the last minute causing me to dread them with all my heart. good idea?
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Monday, March 15, 2010
I can't wait for the day when I can go running or go swimming and then just lay out and soak the sun into my skin and eat a Popsicle and listen to my Ipod and not have to worry about any other cares in the world. This probably will never happen, but a girl can dream, right?
Today I went for a run and I was thinking about how nice it would been to come home and eat and shower and relax and not stress about having classes the next day, or the dozen projects that I have to finish before the semester is over. And winter classes are over in 4.5 weeks, and then finals finish just a week after that. But, then I'll still be working 30-40 hours a week and finishing up all the wedding planning. So actually, even then I won't be CARE free.
But its probably better not to be completely care free, right? I mean, its good to have things and people that I'm concerned about. Even if it does mean that sometimes I'm stressed beyond belief. And then even little things stress me out, like today I freaked out about not having Nate's birthday present even though the tracking device said it was already delivered. Not a big deal right? I checked the mail after I got home from campus and it was in our mail box, which means I definitely didn't have any reason to stress out about that.
I'm just glad that the weather is finally warming up. And I'm praying we don't have any more surprise snowstorms like we did this last Saturday. The temperature on Wednesday is supposed to get up to 62 degrees, which is almost warm enough for shorts, and is most definitely warm enough for flip flops. And Nate and I are going out to eat tonight, thanks to my dear mother. And even if I do have to work in an hour, and I haven't done any homework for tomorrow, life is still good. Scratch that. Life is beautiful.
Today I went for a run and I was thinking about how nice it would been to come home and eat and shower and relax and not stress about having classes the next day, or the dozen projects that I have to finish before the semester is over. And winter classes are over in 4.5 weeks, and then finals finish just a week after that. But, then I'll still be working 30-40 hours a week and finishing up all the wedding planning. So actually, even then I won't be CARE free.
But its probably better not to be completely care free, right? I mean, its good to have things and people that I'm concerned about. Even if it does mean that sometimes I'm stressed beyond belief. And then even little things stress me out, like today I freaked out about not having Nate's birthday present even though the tracking device said it was already delivered. Not a big deal right? I checked the mail after I got home from campus and it was in our mail box, which means I definitely didn't have any reason to stress out about that.
I'm just glad that the weather is finally warming up. And I'm praying we don't have any more surprise snowstorms like we did this last Saturday. The temperature on Wednesday is supposed to get up to 62 degrees, which is almost warm enough for shorts, and is most definitely warm enough for flip flops. And Nate and I are going out to eat tonight, thanks to my dear mother. And even if I do have to work in an hour, and I haven't done any homework for tomorrow, life is still good. Scratch that. Life is beautiful.
Thursday, March 11, 2010
The Birthday Boy
Tomorrow is Nate's birthday. He will be turning 22, which means we will no longer be the same age (until my birthday in August) he said that he can "call me young as long as we are not the same age (fortunately that's only 5 months out of the year).
Here is a post on "our" new blog that I wrote about him. I'll probably still update this blog too. Especially when its not in concerns to Nate. We'll see...
Happy Birthday Lover. I hope its the best!
Here is a post on "our" new blog that I wrote about him. I'll probably still update this blog too. Especially when its not in concerns to Nate. We'll see...
Happy Birthday Lover. I hope its the best!
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Registry
Nate and I registered at Bed Bath and Beyond on Saturday. It was so much fun! Nate was totally dreading it before we started, but once we got there I think he really liked it. I think he enjoyed the idea that we can pick what the colors of our house will be and the fun and nice things we will (hopefully) get.
Nate ended up having to go into work late Saturday night, and I was so obsessed with registering that I stayed online chatting with him and we were sending links back and forth. It was fun, but it made me pretty tired for 9:00 church the next morning.
We've heard we should register somewhere else, but we can't figure anywhere else that we'd really want to register. On Tuesday we went to Target and today we went to Sears. They both have a few things we might like, but I don't think its enough to make a whole registry there. Any ideas of where else we should register? Or should we be okay with only BBaB? Maybe that way we can make sure we get the things we really like the most. At one point we talked about registering at a sporting goods place so we could get camping and fishing stuff, but I don't know what store we would pick for that either. They don't have Cabellas in VA or CA.
Anyway, of course you will all be getting me a lovely wedding present (just kidding) so you can check out or registry if you want. Just type in our names or our registry number which is 11561841. I love looking back at it and getting so excited to get gifts! Is that selfish of me?
Nate ended up having to go into work late Saturday night, and I was so obsessed with registering that I stayed online chatting with him and we were sending links back and forth. It was fun, but it made me pretty tired for 9:00 church the next morning.
We've heard we should register somewhere else, but we can't figure anywhere else that we'd really want to register. On Tuesday we went to Target and today we went to Sears. They both have a few things we might like, but I don't think its enough to make a whole registry there. Any ideas of where else we should register? Or should we be okay with only BBaB? Maybe that way we can make sure we get the things we really like the most. At one point we talked about registering at a sporting goods place so we could get camping and fishing stuff, but I don't know what store we would pick for that either. They don't have Cabellas in VA or CA.
Anyway, of course you will all be getting me a lovely wedding present (just kidding) so you can check out or registry if you want. Just type in our names or our registry number which is 11561841. I love looking back at it and getting so excited to get gifts! Is that selfish of me?
Monday, February 15, 2010
4 things
this morning i talked to my mom for about an hour and a half. she told me that she loved being able to talk to nate (along with my dad) on monday (when he asked them permission, to ask me to marry him). she said she asked him why he wanted to marry me. his four main reasons were:
1. because we connect spiritually. he said that with some people you can just feel that there is a deeper connection. more than just a physical and mental connection, but a spiritual one too. even though he didn't go on a mission he believes that the Lord put me in his life now for this purpose and he needs to take advantage of it. he is looking forward to us being able to grow together spiritually and have experiences where our testimonies both grow.
2. because i am a hard worker. he said that he is glad that i work hard now. even though i don't have the best job, i still do the best i can with what i can. because i don't depend on my parents to pay for me, even though i could if i really needed to. because being a hard worker now will prepare me to be a hard worker when i am a mother and at home with our children.
3. because i am intelligent. he said that i don't ever give myself credit for actually intelligent i really am. but he loves that we can just talk, about anything and everything and we can have a good conversation. he said he's dated lots of girls that weren't very smart and he couldn't do that with, but he can with me.
4. because i am beautiful. he said that beauty is the first thing to draw someone in. its the thing to make you walk across the room to see someone, and to keep coming back.
it made me cry as mom was telling me these things, and it even made me cry again as i'm sitting here writing them down. i'm so in love with this boy, and i'm so lucky to have him love me back.
1. because we connect spiritually. he said that with some people you can just feel that there is a deeper connection. more than just a physical and mental connection, but a spiritual one too. even though he didn't go on a mission he believes that the Lord put me in his life now for this purpose and he needs to take advantage of it. he is looking forward to us being able to grow together spiritually and have experiences where our testimonies both grow.
2. because i am a hard worker. he said that he is glad that i work hard now. even though i don't have the best job, i still do the best i can with what i can. because i don't depend on my parents to pay for me, even though i could if i really needed to. because being a hard worker now will prepare me to be a hard worker when i am a mother and at home with our children.
3. because i am intelligent. he said that i don't ever give myself credit for actually intelligent i really am. but he loves that we can just talk, about anything and everything and we can have a good conversation. he said he's dated lots of girls that weren't very smart and he couldn't do that with, but he can with me.
4. because i am beautiful. he said that beauty is the first thing to draw someone in. its the thing to make you walk across the room to see someone, and to keep coming back.
it made me cry as mom was telling me these things, and it even made me cry again as i'm sitting here writing them down. i'm so in love with this boy, and i'm so lucky to have him love me back.
Saturday, February 13, 2010
I started this post on Thursday...Nate told me that he'd tell me one thing that he loved about me a day until we're engaged.
1. my eyes
2. my hands
3. my butt
4. my lips
When we were at the park he began with, I guess I'll just tell you a bunch of things I love about you now, because this is the end of the list... (something like that). He pulled that precious little box out of his pocket and I still don't think I realized what was going on. A few seconds later the tears started dripping out of my eyes. He picked that location because he'd gone there a few times in the past couple months (late at night, after we'd been hanging out) to pray and make sure that WE were right.
He got down on one knee and asked me to marry him and, well, I said YES. I was so excited I didn't even give him a chance to put the ring on my finger. I stole it out of the box and put it on myself.
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1. my eyes
2. my hands
3. my butt
4. my lips
When we were at the park he began with, I guess I'll just tell you a bunch of things I love about you now, because this is the end of the list... (something like that). He pulled that precious little box out of his pocket and I still don't think I realized what was going on. A few seconds later the tears started dripping out of my eyes. He picked that location because he'd gone there a few times in the past couple months (late at night, after we'd been hanging out) to pray and make sure that WE were right.
He got down on one knee and asked me to marry him and, well, I said YES. I was so excited I didn't even give him a chance to put the ring on my finger. I stole it out of the box and put it on myself.
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can you tell how ecstatic I am?
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